finally christmas is passed. I am spending another day alone because of no money my disabillity just does not cover gifts and extras. I am able to have the bare necessities but there is no extras. I have no care sand being disabled cannot walk very far so the holidasy's for me are very depressing. I do ok on a normal day but when i see people giving gifts I get depressed because i know it just is not possible. we make sure there is one per child but usually nothing left for the adults so at least it will be another yr until it comes around
It says in the bible that god help those who help themselves but the last yr i have lived has shaken my faith to the point I do not know where to turn to. everything I have tried has been not enough even though I have struggled to do as our country's laws say I must do. there will be no gifts in my home because I just cannot stretch 985.00 a month far enough. once rent of 520 is paid the 477.00 in child support there is not much left. where do I turn now?
well I just got back from court and even though I only get a pension of 985 they did not lower my child support infact they raised it to 477 now what do I do? I was just barely making it by eating only twice a day. what else can I give up I have no phone,tv or anything extra I don't even have a car but he convinced them that even though I am disabled he needs the money more. him and his wife make over 80,000 a yr I exist on just barly 10,000. I am finding out justice only comes to those who can afford it. the only thing I can figure is to give up my little trailer I rent, I canreally see how some people become homeless because if I don't pay it I go to jail. is this the gov't I fought for? where is the justice? it does not exist for the poor, or disabled.
as I sit here day after day dealing with the pain of fibromyalgia my puppy jumps up in my lapp and gives me unconditional love the makes it worth going on i did not know that serving my country would make serving my country would make the rest of my life from bone injuries so painful and lonley
is anyone else tired of the sale I think people have forgot the meaning of what christmas is about.
the holidays realy make me question my faith in god and my fellow man. I dont ask for much I went to the food bank and was turned away because they had nothing so for thanksgiving i had a penutbutter sandwich all by myself. it sounds like christmas sounds christmas is going to be some of the same so you tell me where is the spirit of christmas and the holidays when you ask for help and everyone looks at you like you have two heads
I served my country and now I just try to exist on a very small pension. I am so glad thanksgiving is over a penut butter sandwitch and some tv shows helped make it pass quetly . hopefully christmas passes in the same way. I cannot afford even a tree so I just hope it hurrys up and gets over with
I guess peanut butter and jelly will make a good meal on thanksgiving and then watch a movie. I tried to get help for a turky meal but the food bank here in new braunfels is almost out of food so just make do
well another holiday coming and Iall I want to do is stay in bed. I have no energy to do anything and I really do not see a future. I got back in contact with y kids after 13 yrs but two do not really want to have anything to do with me. all I want is to have my kids back but now that will not happen no car to drive the 200 miles where they live and no way to call them. so what is life worth?
received the official forclosure notice today. could not find a loan for 2,000 because my home is a trailer home. so now i do not know what me and my pup are going to do but at least we will be together. it is enough to say I quit!!!!!
in one week I will loose my home to comal county tax sale for 2000 in back property tax that i could not get paid off. i tried to get a loan but being disabled i was turned down and comal county would not talk to me i tried to keep up but i got behind in the pmts when i had to bury my younger brother and my grandmother i am about ready to just say i quit
if I could get one wish filled it would be to get my teeth fixed. the pain meds for my back have ruined my teeth so I no longer smile
I went up to see my daughter that i have not seen since she was 10 and it was a nice visit except she was so worried that her step mother was going to do something violent to me that she could not relax. I also found out that the kids are being homeschooled but they have never been tested at a local school to see what grade they are really in or how they are doing. two of the kids where even porovided a diploma but when tested to get into comunity college the have to take all remedial classes. this leaves me real worried about my son that is still in this situation. what can i do when i live on a small pension and everyont throws in my face "get a lawyer".
I used to be one of the most trusting eople you cpold ever meet but not anymore to mant times someone has promised to do something and then not follow through to the point I have lost my faith i humanity. noe if someone says they are going to do something i say thats great but I do not count on that anymore because promises do not mean anymore than the breath it takes to say them they are just words.
can anybody answer me me why someone would offer to help then just not follow through? A gentelman said he would help me with the deposit for the elecric to turn it on before the big freeze this weekend and told me he would call me and put the 200 dollars on my wallmart card but he never callrd.
i applied for help at a number of different help places but still have not heard and it just keeps getting colder. I just wish i could afford about 30 dollars appiece for my three teenagers for christmas I am thankful they are staying with their grandma where it is warm since i can not find help in my county. one county away there is all kinds ofnhelp even dental but I do not live in that county so they turned me down.
well we got the trailer moved but even though it is cold it will be a while before we will have electricity. looks like we will be camping out in our own house. we have two huricane lamps and a couple of old fashioned quilts so it hopefully will be ok, we also have a little bit of propane to heat up cans of soup. I think soup will be the easiest to cook on the burner on the side of the barbq pit. well it looks like soup for christmas dinner hooray. 500 dollar deposit plus 140 for the electrician is really hard to come up with $1800 by selling almost everything i had. the only thing I have left is my leather biker jacket worth $300 if any one is interested to help out.
